Sometimes it feels as though
I'm caught amidst the wind
Anchor disjointed
And internal void on display
Sometimes I want my matter to easily flow Flow just like the rain
But it needs thawing out
So wishes to melt away
It’s like drifting through cerebral time and space
But the weight of restlessness leaves me breathless in distaste
I know myself apparently
Have to give myself grace
Though my feelings are a game of their own right
A jigsaw dynamic with invariable pace
To understand yourself fully
Can feel like relentless gruelling work
A personal enigma spent learning and decoding
Some unpaid labour thats reaps cheap rewards
And more than anything
Monotonous and boring
Aren’t we better off
just ignoring
Aren’t we all just extra-terrestrial
Celestial sentiments
sentimentally attached to a temporary existence
Subsumed and consumed by the simplicities and undefined intricacies of humanity
Conventions and ongoing tensions decided by insanity
So we forego the lessons of life and cycles that chain us to the matrix of reality
Imprisoned by principles shrouded in vanity
And that’s often men
Men who take what isn’t theirs
Men who lead by ego
Private browsing my consciousness
Whilst their shadow goes incognito
With all that in mind
I urge not to feel so unwell
About the growth of confusion
within my vessel, soul or self
There’s a knowing
that grows deep in the dirt
At the pit of my core
pulling gently
Milling to restore
Peace of mind is not an eternal guarantee and
Blanket comprehension is distressing
To exist sometimes is a precious chore
But the burden of life is a blessing